Transformation

It’s 2025. And what I want is to transform, like Goku in Dragon ball Z, or like Michael Jordan in the league. Transformation doesn’t happen overnight though. It takes time to develop into something greater. I’ve been reading this book called, The Power of Letting Go. This has inspired me to let go of things I hold on to - fear, insecurity, guilt, etc. Goku let go, and thus, transformed into a much greater being. Michael Jordan let go and let the game come to him. Now he’s revered as the greatest basketball player of all time. Now it’s my turn.

“Transform”, some anime characters would say to each other to test their strengths in battle. My transformation shall be from within. A year ago, I was at Church and asked one of the leaders to pray for me. I knew I was entering a new territory in my life and needed some guidance. This person asked God to “allow my light to shine and stand out to others.” I was taken aback by this prayer. But I felt his faith in me. And I couldn’t believe it. But now I can.

If I let go, I will shine this year. When I stop trying to be the perfect man, I will glow. When I stop being angry at the past, I can heal and find truth in myself. When I stop obsessing over the future and overthinking, I will find peace and start living. Transformation takes time. So, this is a daily effort.

I’m praying, journaling, reading, and writing more than I have in a while. I’m determined to break through the mental barriers that hold me hostage. Freedom is my only objective. Six years ago, I talked to my therapist about my sense of pride. I felt pride in the acknowledgement and approval of others. He asked me, “What do you think about pride coming from within?” I didn’t understand this question then, but I do now. If I believe in myself, then that’s all that matters. This is how I will transform.